Counter Culture

I used to be in love with those words. They held a magic, a heady, ready-to-move feeling. Today, I'm wondering why. The world is calling out so many things, and they say all those things are right. Anyone who does not agree with them is a failure at being human. Of course, I don't agree, I never have.

But I'm wondering what human is. I used to be so strong in my opinions, used to be ready to fight for true causes. I had an obsession with William Wilberforce. I thought I was going to be the next person to burn myself out for the good of the world. Now I feel like I could care less. The paths of glory lead but to the grave, after all.

Writing this, I feel a pretty sorry mess. I committed long ago to never writing journal entries on a computer and now I've gone and done it. But I also have my answer:

Being human is trivial, transient, and trite without a Why. All the lies of the world and the calling of protesters and the shooting of guns are the works of men without whys. But I have a Why. My God is above all of this. He is above my opinions. He is above the opinions of the world. He is above my highest emotions. I may feel flat now. God is above that, and because He lives in me, I will be above that also. My soul may not swell in emotion, but it will still move on a steady and advancing course toward victory.

Even so, come Lord Jesus.